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We probably should.

I know I'm the least evolved and my jealous streak is infamous, but I know it's different here. It feels different here.

So I'm okay if there is something there. I will definitely be bad at it don't get me wrong, I'm still me! But I can try. If there is something to try about.

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There's something to try. Or, to not try.

It started in the other Saltburnt. And then we were unwittingly bunked together. Or, not. I haven't thought too hard into it.

But, it's not us. And it never will be.

( Like she could never be him and Elena or he could never be Caroline and Tyler. He's let her down enough like Tyler, but he's trying hard not to again. )

And, for the record, any time you aren't able to try or trying gets hard, you can ask me anything.

( He'll spend every day reassuring her if he has to. Every minute. That love won't waiver. )

I think he'll always love you. Klaus. Maybe it's respect, or seeing your goodness. But, it's deep and undying. Kind of like all of us.

I just

Want to get it all out there. I think it's smart to.

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You picked a good time to come back. I'm not sure if I could deal with this without the looming threat of this stupid game putting it all in perspective.

[ they're dancing around it, saying what "it" really is, but then he gets her with the gut punch of he'll always love you. would he still love her with all the baggage she is about to have? when she's a mom?

nope, she flinches at the thought again and has to push it aside. it's too much. and her mom won't be there to— abruptly, she finds herself crying and she's glad neither stefan nor klaus are there at the moment. she doesn't want comfort, she just wants to cry it out for a while. ]

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I wish I could take the credit.

Maybe you brought me back.

( He had to wake up. For her. Like a reverse Sleeping Beauty or Snow White. And that rankles, compared to their friend's Sleeping Beauty curse. The master of which is here now. It hurts, too. )

I also know it's a month later, but I really am sorry for my mother and for Valerie and all of the Heretics. Here I thought it couldn't get worse than dying at the hands of a Traveler.

( And then Damon dying. )

I am sorry if I shared too much. My common sense was... lacking at the end of the month.

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You don't have to apologize for that, Stefan. I mean for the Heretics. It's not like you hand-picked me to get kidnapped and tortured.

I accept your apology about blurting out our future though.

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No, I only handpicked you to deliver a bomb. Well, you volunteered.

I promise to be a united front from now on. And, to hold anything in if... I sleep for another month. Not that I'm looking to. I'm happy with where I came from.

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I'm pretty happy with where you came from too.

[ baby bombshell excepted. ]

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So, you don't hate the idea of me thinking about you as my fiancee?

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I'm still getting used to it. It feels like we skipped past girlfriend which I really wanted to be, but fiancee is nice too.

It just makes me sad that Mom isn't there to see it, you know?

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I know.

( it never gets easier. )

I think I told you once that I wished you had met Lexi.

( And maybe, at the very end, his mom would have been happy. )

I don't mind calling you my girlfriend, if you want to put future events on pause. But, you aren't getting out of me calling you something.

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[ maybe liz saw it coming before both of them did anyway. ]

I wish I met her too.

You can call me whatever you want. Let me work through boyfriend first though.

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While you're working through boyfriend, then you'll be my girlfriend. To make it even. But, maybe, some people might learn we're engaged. I think Gale and Astarion would be happy for us.

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I think they would be too.

[ it warms her heart that he immediately considered the small family she made for himself. ]

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In the face of our... less than straight forward reunion. His words.

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I called you my situationship to Gale.

[ it was a lot messier with astarion because she had a small klaus-shaped meltdown. ]

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Ouch. But, I deserved it, considering when I came from and what I did. And, I guess, we weren't defined exactly before you were held captive.

Obviously, we get it together. It just takes a few more days. Believe it or not, Valerie keeps things pretty messy. But, she does go on to help us. Greatly.

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I think I'll have to live through that to believe it.

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Would you believe that Valerie cast a spell on you to make our skin feel like vervain when we touched?

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Sure can!

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Nora and Mary-Lou siphoned it away. Well. One of them did. We forced them.

And then we had a pretty great after party.

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I still hate them right now.

[ but she is charmed by his slow roll of information this time. one tidbit at a time. ]

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I didn't hate them, but, I never came around to them. Not until the very end.

( Of the heretic - phoenix stone - rayna cruz saga )

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Maybe I'll get there but not today.

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You don't have to be anywhere you don't want to be.

... Well, except this commune, but you know what I mean.